i am really insanly bored right now.

 QUICK!!! I NEED A COSTUME!!!!

 ARGGG!!!!!
maybe I'll write a story

I have a dress, I have the perfect shoes. And yet I don't have a date. I think there's something wrong with that.

 

 I can't wait to start running start next semmester. I'll be at college! I'm so freaking excited. It's not that I don't like high school, it's more that i really really just want to get on with my life. There isn't enough for me at high school. I want the independence associated with college. I want the freedom to chose whatever classes I want. I want to not be tied to having a first through sixth period schedual without being alowed to leave campus. I can't freaking wait man.
The only thing I'm not really certain of is that I don't know what my mom thinks of it. All i know right now is that she really wants me to decide everything with her. Not by myself. Which is really starting to annoy me. Seeing as this nis my life I think i should be allowed to decide for myself what I do with mylife. Oh well. I guess I'm still underage and therefore not mature enough. Atleast that's what the governement and society keep telling me.
I want a tattoo also,=P. I'm watching LA ink at the moment and it makes me really really want a tattoo. Lalala, two more years (more like one and a half) and i can get as many tattoos and piercings as i want.

Been a while since I've written any updates. No real reason why, except that the internet is starting to bore me. Because I'm special like that. Anyway...... I have a job (not sure wether or not I've actually posted anything about it) and I love it. I work at Zumiez. The people are awsome, the pay is pretty sweet, and I don't have a dress code. I pretty much fold clothes and talk to people. It's easy and I love talking to random people.

School started, I've got an insane schedual, French 3, physics, AP chem, Honor's English, calc, and AP U.S. History. Yay. So far the homework load hasn't been too bad and I've still been able to maintain a social life but you never know.

No love life, still. Some cute guys I see alot but not much hope for a relationship with any of them. And I need a homecoming date. Okay, i don't NEED a homecoming date, but I would really like one. Oh well. That's life.

I really really need to sleep now though. I'll probably get on here and try to write something that requires some deep thought tommarow but I'm not sure how much work i have to do tommarow....... or if I'll be able to think.

Kyra gets to rant time!!!! YAY!!! Everyone's favorite time of the uhhhh..... day!!!! (except i don't post that often!)

Well, let's start out with I have finally let go of a long time crush (and just for an F.Y.I. I'm not going to mention a few names....... cause i don't want to). Been hanging out a lot with this guy and it's just not what I tried to make myself think it was. Oh well. He's still awsome.
And then there's the ex! Yay! Don't we all love when ex's start getting all close again! It's so much fun! And then factor in friends with benifits in there and calls back and forth really really late at night and making an effort to see each other even though he moved a bit away and what do you get? You get a giant bowl of complicated! It's delicious!
What else is there... hmmm.... 
I finally feel comfortable in my faith. I'm talking my relationship with God here so feel free to tune me out. I've knocked down that last wall, thrown my last stone in the river. There is nothing holding me back from commiting my life to God.
I still have no idea what I want to do with my life. Honestly, all I know right now is that I really really want to do something in music. Wether it's being in a band or producing. But then again I really do want to do something in politics. Journalism or even law. I want to make a difference. I don't know. I've been praying alot about it but I still don't know what I'm suposed to be doing with my life. I've been getting a lot of brochures and things from colleges and my mom keeps trying to tell me what she thinks I should do with my life. She thinks I should be a lawyer. I tried telling her that I wanted to do something in music and I swear she almost grounded me.
Which brings me to another topic. My mom thinks I should only have one tattoo and no more piercings than the two I have in each ear. She actually told me that she wasn't going to pay for college if I get more than one tattoo. I don't get her.
And the other day she asked me if I was ever going to listen to music that wasn't angry. I'd like to point out that I was listening to Thrice at the time. So I grabed a piece of paper and a pen and without saying a word to her I wrote down the lyrics for Of Dust and Nations, the song I was listening to, "so put your faith in more than steel, don't store your treasures up, with moth and rust where thieves break in and steal" and next to it I wrote a bible passage, Mathews 6: 19 "Don't store your treasures on earth, where moth and dust doth corupt and thieves break in and steal." and I asked her if that sounded angry. She really didn't have much to say.
Maybe I'm crazy or maybe I'm just going through that typical teenage rebelion stage but I really really don't think my mom gets me. Let's state facts. I'm a good kid. I'm in advanced classes, I play a sport, I go to church every Sunday and I'm straight edge. There's no reason for my mom to think that I'm not a good kid yet she does. I prove to her time and time again that I'm not listening to angry music (hello, some of my favorite bands are Christian rock bands) that I don't party, that I can look out for myself and that I am intelligent. She should trust me by now. She should let me be who I am. ARRGGGHHH!!!!!


Okay. Wow. I really didn't think this was going to be so much about my dear mother. Oh well.